Just turned 16 yesterday. What should I do ?

I just turned 16, i'm a girl in Europe so I can buy alcohol now lol. Kinda venting but when I was bullied at school, I planned to end myself at like 15. I didn't actually think I would ever reach this age, so I didn't plan anything for my future. Uh. Recently I met a girl that I loved with all my heart but she went away after dating like 3 times cause I lived too far away. She was basically the reason I didn't do what I planned to do, and now I feel left here, by myself, too late for a future, heartbroken and too late for love, and too late to end it. I genuinely don't know what to do I feel like a ghost. But anyways.

I just turned 16, i'm a girl in Europe so I can buy alcohol now lol. Kinda venting but when I was bullied at school, I planned to end myself at like 15. I didn't actually think I would ever reach this age, so I didn't plan anything for my future. Uh. Recently I met a girl that I loved with all my heart but she went away after dating like 3 times cause I lived too far away. She was basically the reason I didn't do what I planned to do, and now I feel left here, by myself, too late for a future, heartbroken and too late for love, and too late to end it. I genuinely don't know what to do I feel like a ghost. But anyways.