the crush situation has gotten worse.

I'M LITERALLY GONNA CRY. basically guys I am a serial crusher but that's mostly bc I'm lonely and anytime someone is nice to me I start to like them (esp with boys) and I'm low-key regretting sending a Valentine to a boy. Because he's cute if you remember "flame" from my previous posts, but still he would never look at me, not that way at least. Anyways but there's this other boy who I recently got sat next to in my geo class, let's call him "racer" and he is so nice to me. When I was asking the teacher a question and he brought up how I'm a WW2 nerd, racer immediately started talking to me, he casually dropped "yeah I play..(I forgot the game but you basically can control how WW2 went like you can play it historically accurate or not)" (he also waited for me and the teacher to stop talking) and now we talk during class sometimes. We have other classes together but we really only talk in this one which idk he probably doesn't even like me that much. I sit there staring at his screen while he plays video games but I low-key want to look at him instead. I'm not trying to get into a relationship but it's nice to have a crush sometimes yk? His birthday is today but I didn't know that during the class we sat together, otherwise I would've said happy birthday. I had another chance but I didn't know if his friends knew and I didn't want to put him on the spot. I know he could never like me, but he's so cute and nice to me. He's funny too, and he laughs at my jokes sometimes. (Guys it's a sign) Jk. I want to paint my nails his favorite color but I don't really even know him, and I don't know how to get to know him. He's nice but I doubt he will want to talk to me outside of the few classes we talk to eachother in, because I am the weird kid. I mean he strikes me as a nerd as well, but idk he prob would cry if he found out. I had the feminine urge to rest my head on his shoulder but I stopped myself. I think the reason I'm feeling this way is bc I'm deeply lonely. Anyways an update on "Pickle" I passed his ball to him in P.E a few times, and I saw him in the hallway. I keep my head down in the hallway though, I don't want to embarrass anyone if they are seen talking to or waving to me. I mean he doesn't even know me, he probably would convulse at the thought of the weird unathletic girl liking him. I feel really bad , I wish I didn't like any of them because I can't imagine the shit they'd get from their friends. Like "oh hahaha the weird lonely girl likes you!" aaauaughhh. anyways. I know nobody is gonna read all this but

TL;DR = I have 3 crushes and they would all never like me back

Posting really because I have no friends and nobody to talk to about this, have a good day guys.