I think it’s time.

I've been battling dopamine addiction for years. Doesn't matter what I do, blow, weed, Xanax, or drinking. Been a year and I've just been drinking. I started traveling for work and have been going hard myself. I just got out of a 4 day bend with a 12 pack of seltzer a day. I'm sick, I'm tired, I just want to be content with my reality. But this knawing emptiness keeps clawing at my soul.