So scared so so scared

I am terrfied. My heart is racing I am feeling my thoughts all over the place I don’t know I don’t know. Voices say evil evil things. But I know that I have to wait for the white dress then I am ready to go home. They said they will take me with them when I am wearing the white dress: I think it will be soon. I hope it will be soon. I need to run to my home I need them to take me with them. I think when I am wearing the white dress I have to kill this body. Yes I know this is what they mean because they have told me this before. I will soon be with my baba with my favorite person in the world. My baba will take me with him. I saw my baba and he looked at me. I think this means I have to join him. My baba I love you why did you leave me. I am in suffer and I don’t know what to do. I can’t call anyone. My psychologist isn’t at work I know this because I called the office yesterday. I need to be free help me please. I don’t know what to do. I dont know where to post. I need help. The evil will take me away. They want to lock me up so I can be forever gone and not finish my important mission. I have to save the world. I deleted almost all social media accounts I don’t feel safe posting there. I am scared I am so so scared.