Final ending - absolutely a crying mess.

I am just crying my eyes out, so I had to come share somewhere in the hopes someone out there feels the same I do.

My journey with the Elderling Realm has taken me two years to complete. I started in January 2021 and just finished the final book, Assassin's Fate. I sometimes wish I 1. Wasn't a slow reader and 2. Hadn't taken such long breaks between sets, since sometimes the impact of some events didn't hit as hard due to me struggling to remember details or people.

These characters were my companions during a year I ended my marriage. They were my companion last year, the year I took charge of my life and followed what I wanted, a Catalyst of my own fate (cheesy, yes). They've gotten me through long nights and sleepless hours. Here I am, in a future January 2021 me never would have predicted or thought was possible.

Spoilers begin below!

I find myself a little frustrated at some aspects, wishing she'd written just one more book or something (maybe I've not found it) to answer some pretty open questions. Who was truly Bee's Catalyst, or was she both catalyst and prophet? I would have enjoyed a little more moments with the Wolf of the West, seeing the wholeness of our trio finally together. Does he last longer then Verity as Dragon in being able to move about? Also, what happened to the other liveships? Were the Traders able to prevent their ships from becoming their true forms? Did Tarman choose to stay as he was (always a very mysterious one, that one!)?

Why did they not kill off Icefyer instead of cursing him to bury himself in ice? Do Lant and Spark end up together? Is the Silver (serpent blood?), Skill and Wit truly three different magics or were they one in the same?

So many questions, and maybe I'll be able to have the heart to Google answers to dig around in hopefully Author answers or strong fan theories. For now, I am weeping that our three finally came together (even if I shame myself in admitting that while I understood Bee's character, her absolute toxic spit at Fool just wasn't that way I imagined he'd join Nighteyes and Fitz finally, so I disliked her at the end. Granted, I disliked her Fitz father throughout the books somtimes haha.).

Whew. Thanks for the space to share. ❤️