Heartbreaking miscarriage

We lost our baby last night at 8 weeks and I could never have imagined how traumatic it would be. Not just loosing the baby but the fact that I felt the baby come out and I can’t get out of my head that our baby is in a toilet 😭😭😭😭 I feel so sick about it and so angry! I was at the hospital for 3 days telling them I was bleeding and cramping and they didn’t do anything. I can’t believe this has happened