I’m on day 4. Feel so empty and lonely

It sounds dumb, but weed has been one of my only pleasure sources for a long time. All I want is to spark up a joint and feel the relief. I don’t like anything about myself rn. I don’t see value in me. Weed numbed my emotions for so long that now I just feel empty. How do I keep this up? Every night is a session of distracting myself from smoking and being anxious the whole time