Done

I am so done with everything. I have tried therapy, medication, changing jobs, cities and friendship groups. I found a loving partner. I am still miserable.

It feels like there's no options left.

Covid is making everything worse too. It's relentlessly exhausting and scary. I just want it to end, but it seemingly never will.

(TW) I've started self-harming again because I just don't know what else I can do. Existing feels like just a painful game of endurance, for the sake of others.