My first ever boyfriend gave me genital herpes

So, I’m a 21-year-old college student. I started dating my boyfriend like five months ago and even though our relationship has been good up until this and I know that he didn’t mean to give this to me, I’m still reeling from the feeling that my life is over.

I had never even kissed anyone before my boyfriend and my boyfriend hasn’t had much experience before me either. We had been having sex with a condom for about a month and a half before we took the jump and had condomless sex (after I had been on birth control for a reasonable amount of time) because it was something we had been looking forward to. Before we even really started dating, we both got STD and STI tested, but had neglected the one test that would have fucking prevented this because doctors are intentionally weary of giving it. Apparently, most of the population has it. It doesn’t make me feel any better though.

My boyfriend is very good to me and I love him. He’s kind and gentle and generous. He’s really looked out for me since I moved to this new city where I know no one and I honestly don’t know what I would have done without him. But still, this is a lot and I’ve been contemplating breaking up with him for it. But even then, who would date me ever again? Who would have sex with me? I feel so dirty and stupid and I’d give anything to have an STI that I can take the antibiotics for and never encounter again, but I think it’s the fact that I have this for life makes it worse.

I’m just looking for support. I know, logically speaking, my life isn’t over, but I feel like it is.

EDIT: I just got the tests back and it’s HSV-1, so technically oral herpes, but it just manifested on my genitals in this instance.