How'd you feel after losing your virginity?

Hello hello! Virgin since birth here and I've been strongly consumed by the desire to let loose as the years go by, the only thing is that I'm a bit hesitant to sleep around with people who won't be my lover. Partly due to fright of how my family would react and partly due to Catholic teachings na rin that were instilled to me since childhood. I know majority of my peers won't care na rin naman should they find out that I lost my V-card out of marriage cause virgnity is a social construct but still...

Also to those who take birth control pills, where do you buy those? Thank you! Sana walang unwanted pregnancies this year for all of us!! :))

Edit: I am not searching for a partner through social media, please do not attempt contacting me here.