Looking for an old friend

This is a LONG SHOT. Back about 4 years ago I used to play xbox with a guy. The usual games like fortnite and rainbow 6 seige. The dude's name was Brendon or Brandon or some variation of that name and his Xbox Gamertag was "TarahBean(Random Numbers)" He was a femboy, maybe still is, so I know for A FACT he plays this game I'm just hoping he's out here on this subreddit. He plays/used to play VRChat aswell. I know he was going through some mental struggles and it hurts my heart to think he may have taken his own soul like he wanted to. My old Gamertags were Coolgamer227382 and Bub334. If u think I'm talking about you please let me know, and please no pranks I'm genuinely looking for an old friend here.

(Mods please don't take this down I'm pretty sure this is my only chance I have at finding him)