I lost my little brother today

I 35F Lost My 34M Brother Today Not Even 4 Hours Ago And As Bad As I Want To Break Down And Cry And Scream And Throw Things. I Can’t Right Now Because I Have To Fulfill My Role As “The Strong Child” I Have To Stay Strong For My Mom And Siblings And My Gram They’re Completely Broken And Idk What Hurts More Seeing Them This Hurts Or Loosing Him All Together. I Guess I Grieve Later Right Now They Need Me. Damn Addiction Sucks You Were Supposed To Beat This😔

Sorry For All The Errors This Is My 1st Reddit Post And In All Honesty I Always Thought My 1st Post Would Be Different