I wish my scars weren't there TW:Sh

TRIGGER WARNING: Self harm

Sometimes when I look at my arms, I can still see those little cuts. I made those cuts 2 years ago, I wasn't suicidal but I just wanted to release stress by doing this, with a knife. It almost felt like the physical pain took away the emotional pain. I know it was stupid and my parents found out too. My mother shamed me and my father thought that I was doing it due to anger but I was just sad, in fact sorrowful and I didn't know how to deal with it..My relationship with my mother was horrible and dad was concerned with my academics so I didn't want to concern him and I had just one friend (my best friend) but I didn't trust people to express myself as much

I've stopped cutting all together for almost 1.5 years now and I will definitely not get back there but these scars make me sad. I feel like I can't ever wear a sleeveless t-shirt or just let someone look at my forearms for too long. My best friend and another friend of mine have already noticed it and my best friend asked me about it and I just came up with the lamest excuses to tell her.

Anyone who has ever considered self harm, please don't, I know it's hard to bear whatever it is that you're going through but you might just end up causing physical or emotional damage to yourself that time may not heal.