same weight but i look bigger? tw:/ numbers

For some context i was bmi14 and ended up in a bad binge cycle which brought me up to bmi19-20. I binged on a lot of sugary foods such as pastries, cookies, and processed foods, basically everything I restricted. My diet while losing weight and maintaining my lw was very nutritional and clean such as eggs, greek yogurt, veggies, kimchi, fruit, etc.

However I look 10x bigger now then I did was I was previously 108lbs like there’s more fat on my body… and idk if it’s due to the fact that i probably lost some muscle from severe restriction and also just the fact that I ate like shit when gaining in a short time span? But my hw was around 130lbs and tell me why my body looks like my hw when In nowhere near that? Even my face looks 10x fatter and it’s just making me really upset, I don’t think I’ll ever be able to recover if this is how my body is going to look.