5 months later

I miss her I can't communicate with her. I have to continue to respect her request for distance and separation.

I went to Lakes park the other day for a family friends daughters 1 year old party and it was nothing but a constant reminder of all our time together. The place where I proposed to her.

We had our birthday come and go. I didn't expect anything nor do I deserve anything from her, I know a meaningless text would have been selfish and served no purpose.

Soon it will be 6 months apart. Half a year...

This is what life is now. I'm drowning myself in work and everyone keeps trying to help me telling me to forget about her.

Nothing is helping. No one is helpful. I can't help myself I just miss her and my cat.

I messed it up I have to deal with this and face the facts that I can't clean it up with apologies. Just keep on waking up working and maybe I'll find the time to work on myself.

I hope she's happier. That's what matters. I'm glad I am not a bother anymore. I'm glad she doesn't have to deal with a drunk for a husband. She deserves better.

There's no point to this post. Just realized its been 5 months.