Does anyone’s else feel like ranked is just bad?

I am right now a gold two, last season I only got up to gold one and in my ranked games right now I tend to be the only gold player. I know the skill issue is me but how is it fair to me to compete against people at higher skill levels than me. Not to mention that if I manage to win multiple games the matchmaking tends to punish me by giving me opponents that were higher ranked last season. I want the rewards you get from ranked especially since I am new to the game and I have only been playing for a couple week and it will help me out. Some other peoples thoughts that have been playing for longer than me would be nice